Meditational Musings

 what if life is about transmuting the energy translated as pain into desired frequencies? what if this is done by accepting what is - allowing what is to BE what it is, without judgement - and deliberately placing your focus on how you prefer things to be until it is so clear in your mind that physical matter has no choice but to reform itself to your whim. energy is malleable in the face of a clearly focused frequency. this concept has infinitely adaptable potential. note: 'without judgement' does not mean 'without preference'. preference will always exist. preference does not require judgement or label. one can notice what is not preferred and, in the absence of judgement/emotional attachment, transmute it into what is preferred because, again, energy is malleable in the face of clearly focused frequency. how fast we're able to do this is a result of how well we're able to focus. (I've been informed. Still working to 'know' this within this body c...

 it's allowed to all be perfect exactly as it is.  if it's all perfect, then i can feel satisfied and then i'm allowed to focus on what is preferred. i'm allowed to leave the past because it happened as it needed to happen. i'm allowed to let the future be what it needs to be. what happens may or may not be what is preferred, but it's all allowed to be exactly as it is.  i am allowed to be exactly as i am.  - meditation 'i am that i am' it's allowed to be perfect, and i'm allowed to focus on what i prefer.

 i think i don't understand the concept of familial love because, if love is supposed to be unconditional, and people who are family pull away from you or offer you anger/resentment/upset without ever really empathizing with your point of view, then - to me - the translation of that is they don't unconditionally love you. And if there is love that is -not- unconditional, that means it can get taken away. So if they pull away, and you never get anything that feels like it matches that energetic frequency again...yes, you can understand logically that they love you, but the energetic sensation doesn't feel 'right'. It doesn't feel like unconditional love, because it's buried under layers of their own hurts and pains, so isn't translating properly. Assuming they aren't being -intentionally- malicious.  For those that have been intentionally malicious, my money is on that they - at some point in their life, whether consciously or unconsciously - made the...

 choosing a loving universe: "Trusting that things happen the way they do, ultimately, for a reason you'd agree with even if or though you can't understand it from your current perspective." Preferences along the way are normal. Wanting one thing or another is normal. Feeling like you -have- to have it, being attached to the having of it, is where it starts to get tricky. Recognizing a need is good (in so much as there is a 'good'). Being attached to that need as a truth is the conscious ego. That part of you that 'thinks' and makes choices. You make choices at every level, when you get right down to it. Most of them unconscious, and I don't just mean because it's the subconscious or the unconscious or something you have no control over. You have no control over it because you're not doing it consciously. That's it. You can't exactly just decide to become conscious of doing it, either. I mean, you -can-, but if we're talking to ...