Note 31 - Choosing a loving universe - a conversation
choosing a loving universe: "Trusting that things happen the way they do, ultimately, for a reason you'd agree with even if or though you can't understand it from your current perspective."
Preferences along the way are normal. Wanting one thing or another is normal. Feeling like you -have- to have it, being attached to the having of it, is where it starts to get tricky. Recognizing a need is good (in so much as there is a 'good'). Being attached to that need as a truth is the conscious ego. That part of you that 'thinks' and makes choices.
You make choices at every level, when you get right down to it. Most of them unconscious, and I don't just mean because it's the subconscious or the unconscious or something you have no control over. You have no control over it because you're not doing it consciously. That's it.
You can't exactly just decide to become conscious of doing it, either. I mean, you -can-, but if we're talking to the level of, say, 'I'm gonna decide to start consciously pumping the blood through my body!"..? Yea, that's not an immediate thing. That takes years of developing the 'muscles' or 'neural pathways' to use physical metaphors. your version of years, I mean.
But anyway, preferences along the way are normal. Attachment to those preferences is what throws you off. That's why we talk about detachment in Buddhism. It's not that you shouldn't care, but that you shouldn't let the fact that you care about it throw you off your inner peace. That calmness inside.
imagine sitting down to meditate, or taking a moment to try and calm down from something that's made you mad or upset. If you're starting from being mad, or upset, or from some other of the more intense emotions, you can probably tell how it feels in your body. The sensation of it. The more aware you are, the sooner you can feel that sensation beginning.
Think of it like an intuition. Where sometimes you just know something's going to happen, or that something doesn't feel quite right. Get calm enough inside, and that's basically what you get. It can be physical sensations that sort of guide you, or a host of other ways as you learn to communicate with yourself.
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me: how do you know -
You don't know if it'll be alright.
me: what if living in a neutral universe is the truth?
You are. Sort of. I'm having a hard time translating it into language. I can feel the concept as valid, but explaining it further is complicated.
It involves choice.
Sort of like tuning a frequency band. Sort of an outdated reference. See if we can find a better one.
If you're living in a neutral universe to begin with, and at that level of consciousness you're the -only- one - as in, you literally -are- creation. The blank energy canvas that's everything and absolutely nothing all at once. Then, -from- that space comes the first division. Some -thing- to experience, because you can't know anything because, well, nothing actually exists (even if it simultaneously does, but that's getting into dimensional time and that's a different topic).
So, if we are the universe experiencing itself... Then, at that level of consciousness, we are still that. We are one.
The individual I'm talking to at the moment, however, is a different level of consciousness. Understand?
Multi-layered. All kinds of different perspectives. All kinds of different experiences (to use a linear term).
me: And from there we choose which paths we choose to experience.
Sounds redundant, writing it like that, but yes. The concept of what it's like to experience multiple levels of consciousness at once is hard to explain in this language.
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Back on to the concept of the ego level of attachment to a preference.
This is where it's important to choose that it's a loving universe. Because that sets the foundation for many other choice paths. Choosing that calmness inside, instead of the emotions that can swirl and tear at our attention, that's what allows for better vision. Calmness. (And no, not outward calmness with a ranting and raving internally, either. :P lol )
Me: Guilty.. lol
Been there. Not as troubled as you were, but better yet to be still become. That came out garbled.
me: Doing better than I had been, but can get even better at it?
Much better.
On both counts. Yes to you, and yes in general. Ego conscious level and collective conscious level, to use previously used terminology. Individual calmness - reacting to things with a more curious, open mindset, rather than closed or reluctant - helps on an individual, or ego level, as well as helps on a societal level. Not just energetically, but sociologically.
The more individuals that choose to practice that interest in seeing clearly, the more easily people are guided. This, in turn - of the paths available in a loving universe (that first choice), leads to less individuals feeling hurt or the need to lash out.
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"I don't know. Maybe."
Useful when faced with a perspective you don't like. You still get to have your preference. Just, don't get attached to it. Because if it doesn't happen, that attachment becomes pain. Technically it becomes a discordant frequency because you've now got two going on about the same subject, and -that's- translated as pain in that body, but good enough. Not everyone feels the pain of that discord, though, so we want to make it clear that it's just different frequencies 'rubbing together' as it were.