Meditational Musings

 i think i don't understand the concept of familial love because, if love is supposed to be unconditional, and people who are family pull away from you or offer you anger/resentment/upset without ever really empathizing with your point of view, then - to me - the translation of that is they don't unconditionally love you. And if there is love that is -not- unconditional, that means it can get taken away. So if they pull away, and you never get anything that feels like it matches that energetic frequency again...yes, you can understand logically that they love you, but the energetic sensation doesn't feel 'right'. It doesn't feel like unconditional love, because it's buried under layers of their own hurts and pains, so isn't translating properly. Assuming they aren't being -intentionally- malicious.  For those that have been intentionally malicious, my money is on that they - at some point in their life, whether consciously or unconsciously - made the...

 It's not the thought(s) that you're trying to stop. It's the attachment to them. The identifying with them. Notice the reactions you have -to- the thoughts. Those are what need to be addressed. Be aware of the reactions, control the reactions is focus. When you are in control of your reactions, you have the ability to switch your focus to whichever frequency you desire. When the thought(reaction to the thought) controls your reaction/attention, then you lose the ability to focus where you will/desire/want. Fear of choosing wrong is the basis for a lot of anxiety. That is a reaction to a thought. It controls your ofucs, preventing you from seeing other options available. Preventing you from feeling other frequencies available. Preventing you from focusing on other frequencies available. Thus choosing your reality for you. Releasing the attachment to that fear, allowing yourself to look at the ideas being presented -without- reacting in fear, will allow you to have more of t...

 you can't be in the moment if you're worrying about the next moment or fretting about the last moment. Future and past are not now. (Where is your focus?)

 What they think about you doesn't matter. Their reaction to you is -their- manifestation. It's for them to deal with. What this translates to for -you- is that you never have to worry about what any of it means to them. The mental chess game of how to 'make them like you/understand you' is unnecessary. You can check in with them if you feel inspired to in the moment, but worrying over it before or after the fact? Never necessary. The following was obtained after re-reading the above passage: What if it's someone you don't want to hurt (emotionally or physically)?  Staying connected to who you truly are - keeping your attention toward that inner awareness/allowing yourself to be in the frequency of your 'home' self, whether incorporating in your desire frequencies or not, will make it so that hurting them isn't an option in the first place. That innate desire not to hurt them is already built in. It's already a desired frequency. And if they reac...

 one of the basic freedoms you've been asking for when you think you want freedom is freedom from thinking.  not to say you want to follow someone else. no. not sheep or cattle, in that sense. freedom from the vast amount of thoughts attached to every desire. judgements, worries, fears, doubts, definitions. all of those are bars on freedom. that observer state, that is your freedom. maintaining your ability to turn your focus wherever you -want- to turn it, rather than having an emotion or thought grip your focus away from you, is what you want. (Do you -want- to be feeling fear? Hatred? Anger? Anxiety? You may think it a logical reaction to the person, place or situation you're observing, but do you -want- to feel it? If not, you use focus to move your attention to something else. How well can you focus? Amazingly well, if you retain your grasp of your focus. It's when the thoughts and emotions dictate your focus that you have difficulty, or end up having difficulty.)

 our fear of missing out (fomo) keeps us busy. fear of missing out on whats ours if we don't -do- to get it. What's ours can't be missed. It's ours. It's coming to us. All we need to do is relax and let it come to us. We've defined it. Asked for it. But our doubt, our fear of it not coming, keeps it from us. likewise, our insistence that 'it' looks a certain way gets in the way of it coming. what it looks like is part of the 'how'. Just define what you want it to feel like. Anything that feels like that is something that is wanted and is already yours/for you. you can't miss it.