Meditational Musings

 Live in the reality you want to live in. This is a moment by moment thing. this is also how Neville Goddard's technique works. the idea is to live in the end state of it. In other words, moment to moment, live in that state of being. that feeling-state of how it feels in your body. What does the emotion of living in that state of being feel like in your body? Get past the idea of feeling the excitement of it. Get to a point of imaging what it feels like to have had it for a bit. Sort of like that time you got a new toy (a laptop, phone, car, computer, hobby or craft item, etc) and the novelty of it has sort of worn off a little. You still really like and enjoy it, but it's not that same 'brand new exciting' feeling. Daydream for a while about having that desire fulfilled, feel how having it - not getting it, but having it - feels in the body, then live in that reality as best as possible. The physical senses are sorta slow to catch up to internal being, since the exter...

 it's allowed to all be perfect exactly as it is.  if it's all perfect, then i can feel satisfied and then i'm allowed to focus on what is preferred. i'm allowed to leave the past because it happened as it needed to happen. i'm allowed to let the future be what it needs to be. what happens may or may not be what is preferred, but it's all allowed to be exactly as it is.  i am allowed to be exactly as i am.  - meditation 'i am that i am' it's allowed to be perfect, and i'm allowed to focus on what i prefer.

 i think i don't understand the concept of familial love because, if love is supposed to be unconditional, and people who are family pull away from you or offer you anger/resentment/upset without ever really empathizing with your point of view, then - to me - the translation of that is they don't unconditionally love you. And if there is love that is -not- unconditional, that means it can get taken away. So if they pull away, and you never get anything that feels like it matches that energetic frequency again...yes, you can understand logically that they love you, but the energetic sensation doesn't feel 'right'. It doesn't feel like unconditional love, because it's buried under layers of their own hurts and pains, so isn't translating properly. Assuming they aren't being -intentionally- malicious.  For those that have been intentionally malicious, my money is on that they - at some point in their life, whether consciously or unconsciously - made the...

 May 4th, 2022 (01:19 pacific daylight time, military format timestamp) bring your (individual consciousness) awareness down into your heart. imagine a small, golden, glowing bubble. soft, golden light. (dodecahedron, technically, but a bubble is fine in concept) feel the bubble.  [distraction in thought to add time and date. got hung up on the details of formatting. felt like it needed to be very specific. 

the only reason you should do anything is because you want to. "Do you meditate?" "Yes." "For how long?" "Oh, I try for an hour, but most days I only get maybe 20 minutes or so. You knw how it is." "Why do you usually get up from meditation?" "Work, can't stop thinking, kids, any number of reasons." "You got up too soon." "But-" "You got up too soon. It doesn't matter the reason. The only reason that would get a different answer is: Because I wanted to." Conundrum: Following that logic could mean things start falling apart in my life. Kids don't get fed/to school, work goes by the wayside. Let the universe orchestrate the vibrational matches. -You- decide how you want to feel. Anything that does not feel like that will fall away. Either the other people in your life will have a behavior pulled out of them that matches your vibration, or the situation as a whole will change into one tha...

 How to get 'centered': Focus on awareness. Notice that you're aware of your surroundings. That awareness is your center. This is also being 'at zero', in ho'oponopono terms. This is also 'being the observer'. Also 'God'. Also, Source. Also all that is. Everything and nothing. Also, Inner Being. Notice that what you're aware of, when you turn your awareness -to- that awareness, is what you really are. Not the thoughts that float (or zoom) by, not the emotions you feel. If you can be aware of something, you can't truly be that thing. Even turning your attention to that inner awareness, noticing the awareness that observes the thoughts, emotions, body and outter world, can't be fully comprehended, in a way. You can turn your attention to that inner awareness and all thoughts and sensations start to melt away. It's not a space that can really be described - in that space, you simply...-are-. -That-, is you.  You are the universe know...