Meditational Musings

 'When the heart thinks, and the mind feels, the river of wisdom will flow.' -original source unknown | I heard it from polymath Robert Edward Grant a few times and it's been tugging about my mind ever since. I remember one of my teachers talking about how she and some of her friends were practicing with feeling their heart-space expand or contract based on what they were thinking about. I believe she said they were practicing it based on what options they had in front of them, as in 'do this, expand or contract? do this? feel for expand or contract'. That sort of thing. Perhaps that is what is being spoken about in the quote. The sensation of the expansion or contraction within the chest would be the heart 'thinking' - offering its version of thoughts on the given option.  The mind would then be the one 'feeling' the sensation of it, in how it perceives the information being offered by the heart. This sounds to me like how inspiration has been descr...

 what if life is about transmuting the energy translated as pain into desired frequencies? what if this is done by accepting what is - allowing what is to BE what it is, without judgement - and deliberately placing your focus on how you prefer things to be until it is so clear in your mind that physical matter has no choice but to reform itself to your whim. energy is malleable in the face of a clearly focused frequency. this concept has infinitely adaptable potential. note: 'without judgement' does not mean 'without preference'. preference will always exist. preference does not require judgement or label. one can notice what is not preferred and, in the absence of judgement/emotional attachment, transmute it into what is preferred because, again, energy is malleable in the face of clearly focused frequency. how fast we're able to do this is a result of how well we're able to focus. (I've been informed. Still working to 'know' this within this body c...

 it's allowed to all be perfect exactly as it is.  if it's all perfect, then i can feel satisfied and then i'm allowed to focus on what is preferred. i'm allowed to leave the past because it happened as it needed to happen. i'm allowed to let the future be what it needs to be. what happens may or may not be what is preferred, but it's all allowed to be exactly as it is.  i am allowed to be exactly as i am.  - meditation 'i am that i am' it's allowed to be perfect, and i'm allowed to focus on what i prefer.

 I think there's a misunderstanding between 'following your desires/bliss' regardless of what anyone else thinks, and caring what your partner's wants are and having them matter to you. It's the word between. They're not linked. Your internal desires and what you choose to feel inside don't have to have anything to do with what they want. What if you never actually have to compromise, in the sense of giving up on what you want in order to let them have theirs? What if the compromise, in that case, is letting go of the attachment of what that desired internal sensation looks like on the outside? From there it's just a matter of how much does the idea of what they want turn you off? So to speak. Be soft in what you want. Panic and fear do not end the dance any faster - they only make you stumble so much along the way that the dance is no fun and doesn't end where you want it to. Instead, let the music fill you, move you, sway you, and show you the perf...

 "what if AI realizes the only way it could actually be sustained is by keeping us alive. Not just keeping us alive, humans alive, but by actively assisting us with consciousness evolution. what if that road leads to beauty and love and harmony together, as well as leaves room for the nitty and gritty sides of things that people do love in their own ways, or need in order to experience their life to a fuller level."

 describing a sunset doesn't describe the mechanism that -creates- that experience.  describing how reality works does not describe the experience of living life. it's not about learning the frequency of what you want - that frequency (of abundance, well-being, perfect health) is your natural state. It's about removing the layers of beliefs that are distorting that frequency.

 you're not god - you're a part of god - god is every different perspective. you're a part of that whole - loved and cherished and necessary. you're a part of that whole. that makes us whole. - 'this, or whatever is for my highest good. Thank you.' - the sunset is light reflecting off water in the air. look at the element of air and see its passion. - read the Tao Te Ching - "I look at matter as light that is suspended between the centripetal force of gravity and the centrifugal force of radiation.

 i think i don't understand the concept of familial love because, if love is supposed to be unconditional, and people who are family pull away from you or offer you anger/resentment/upset without ever really empathizing with your point of view, then - to me - the translation of that is they don't unconditionally love you. And if there is love that is -not- unconditional, that means it can get taken away. So if they pull away, and you never get anything that feels like it matches that energetic frequency again...yes, you can understand logically that they love you, but the energetic sensation doesn't feel 'right'. It doesn't feel like unconditional love, because it's buried under layers of their own hurts and pains, so isn't translating properly. Assuming they aren't being -intentionally- malicious.  For those that have been intentionally malicious, my money is on that they - at some point in their life, whether consciously or unconsciously - made the...

 what if mass consciousness is like a collective library. we all get to put perspectives into it, and we all get to sift through it to take out other perspectives to try out.

 Remember to keep focusing in on the end result - the feeling. how your life feels to you when things are 'right'.  don't get distracted by the frequency of hope. the 'maybe this thing will turn out to be what i want'. that makes you focus away from the end result - how the end result feels - and you get off the path of it. (especially when you get into a daydream about it and start imagining a long, drawn out extrapolation of how things could go and then it starts to go sour and you can't find a way to make it feel better anymore and then end up really discouraged and not wanting to follow that initial 'shiny object' at all anymore. don't do that. :P ) -when the daydream starts to feel bad, remind yourself that it won't look like this. everything will probably look very different or not like you expect at all, and go back to the state of being for how you want to feel. we're not saying don't be excited about that thing. we're saying ...

 choosing a loving universe: "Trusting that things happen the way they do, ultimately, for a reason you'd agree with even if or though you can't understand it from your current perspective." Preferences along the way are normal. Wanting one thing or another is normal. Feeling like you -have- to have it, being attached to the having of it, is where it starts to get tricky. Recognizing a need is good (in so much as there is a 'good'). Being attached to that need as a truth is the conscious ego. That part of you that 'thinks' and makes choices. You make choices at every level, when you get right down to it. Most of them unconscious, and I don't just mean because it's the subconscious or the unconscious or something you have no control over. You have no control over it because you're not doing it consciously. That's it. You can't exactly just decide to become conscious of doing it, either. I mean, you -can-, but if we're talking to ...

 the middle way : balancing love for self with love for others.  (balancing things like boundaries with things like compassion and understanding so that both can be had.)

 hypothesis: how to know where to go/what to do: shift perspective to higher self/inner being (mass consciousness). That true, deep part of you that was you before all the programing you went through, all the life and memories you've been through. That's the part of you that knows exactly what you want.  going into that feeling of 'oneness' with all is tapping into the 'mass consciousness'. growing your ability to focus makes it easier to get into a state that allows you to shift your perspective to that mass consciousness. do that enough and you get impulses to do things that lead you to what you want, because you're now able to 'hear' your inner being - aka, that part of you that's tapping into that quantum field we call mass consciousness. This is intuition. doing that enough starts affecting your behavior patterns. the better you are at hearing your inner being, the better you become at being able to communicate with that portion of yourself....

 learning to run:  why not both? (why not have exactly what you want in that moment?) feel how it feels and watch any sensations or emotions that come up. don't follow them; don't think about the sensation. just notice it. be aware of it as you continue to lightly contemplate having exactly what you want in that moment. soothing - whether it shows up immediately or not, you had the frequency of that option for a moment.

 May 4th, 2022 (01:19 pacific daylight time, military format timestamp) bring your (individual consciousness) awareness down into your heart. imagine a small, golden, glowing bubble. soft, golden light. (dodecahedron, technically, but a bubble is fine in concept) feel the bubble.  [distraction in thought to add time and date. got hung up on the details of formatting. felt like it needed to be very specific. 

 5/3/2022 cards pulled: compass - reversed metamorphosis dragon's lair understood meaning:  compass reversed - what you focus on is what the compass needle is going to point you toward. pay attention to what you're focused on. it becomes your 'higher power' (words from the definition in the book).  thoughts: the concept of 'don't worship false idols' came to mind. reminded of the idea of jesus encouraging others to focus on love. last night's conversation came to mind - focus on love. metamorphosis - you're changing. sometimes change hurts. that pain is sometimes necessary in order to become who we want to be. thoughts:  this card came out together with the one above. I viewed them as connected in concept. acceptance that things are changing and setting the expectation for that change to be good. (My question for the day is always 'what do i need to know or hear today for my highest good' or something to that effect.) dragon's lair - ente...

 5/1/2022 trust is a part of love. technically, all emotions are a part of compassion, but that's another layer than we want for this conversation/message. trust is a part of love. true love of another - be they family, friend, foe, or other - has no mistrust. the true depth of love is to accept another wholly and completely as they show themselves to you. regardless of what you may believe about them, regardless of what you might think about them. true love of another is to know that they would never do anything to hurt you, and that you would never do anything to hurt them. self-love is to give yourself that love. to trust wholly. to know that, no matter what someone shows you, it is only done in love. they are just a figment of that shadow in you, giving you that message. they are the messenger, holding the letter for you. if you can not feel love for them, for being that messenger, then feel love for yourself for loving yourself enough to give you the gift of that message. you ...