Note 13 - Because You Want To
the only reason you should do anything is because you want to.
"Do you meditate?"
"Yes."
"For how long?"
"Oh, I try for an hour, but most days I only get maybe 20 minutes or so. You knw how it is."
"Why do you usually get up from meditation?"
"Work, can't stop thinking, kids, any number of reasons."
"You got up too soon."
"But-"
"You got up too soon. It doesn't matter the reason. The only reason that would get a different answer is: Because I wanted to."
Conundrum: Following that logic could mean things start falling apart in my life. Kids don't get fed/to school, work goes by the wayside.
Let the universe orchestrate the vibrational matches. -You- decide how you want to feel. Anything that does not feel like that will fall away. Either the other people in your life will have a behavior pulled out of them that matches your vibration, or the situation as a whole will change into one that -does- feel like you want.
This -can- look like divorce. This -can- look like any number of awful stories told about broken homes where it wasn't necessarily a violent or explosive breakup, but a disappearance of said partner. if one person starts being -true- to themselves, it -can- look like that.
That is an extreme rarity. A possibility, but far, far, far from the likely. Here's why: At the very heart of you, under every belief structure that influences your behavior, you. are. love. That pure energy piece of you, that sits in the very core of who you are (concept of accepting Jesus into your heart, anyone?), that in there that's called light? That's source energy. That. Is. You. All of you. Each and every one of you. You all have so many perspectives, yes. Beautifully so! But you're still all that pure source energy at your core, no matter what belief structures that influence your behavior are on it, built up into the unique perspective that is your 'ego' or 'conscious mind'.
That piece of you is the piece that has no desire to hurt anyone. Ever. It'd just be causing yourself pain. At that very core, you know that. Some disagree because belief structures are set up in a way that it can't currently be realized. That's okay! Those belief structures are -also- part of the wonderful buffet of life YOU get to CHOOSE from. You get to choose!
The difficulties come in when you allow yourself to choose, and then don't allow yourself to -keep- following that vibration. You choose wanting to feel peaceful, the idea pops up to leave your family or job or whatever situation, you immediately admonish yourself for thinking - quote - such an awful thought. You apply the label of that being something a 'bad person' would do, when it's not good -or- bad. It's how -you- want to be perceived.
Wanting to be perceived in a particular way isn't a bad thing, per say. Caring what other people think of you can make things more complicated, but not necessarily bad. Flip the narrative. What if you're not behaving in the way you want because you're trying to impress them? What if, in fact, you're behaving in the way you want because you want to impress -you-, and they happen to -like- being around you?
how can you tell the difference in the way you're acting? Ask yourself how it feels. Do you feel like you're contracting, or do you feel open, or peaceful, or content, or free? If you feel anything contractive, then you're people pleasing. If you feel more open or free? You're being who you want to be in that moment, allowing you to be truly who you are.
'Who you are' doesn't necessarily react the same in every given moment. Even a situation that -looks- the same on the outside might be different on a vibrational level. Being who you are in that moment means you will react, in accordance with your desired vibration, in a way that will -match- that desired vibration -at- that moment.
the situation portrayed in movies or shows about the 'space cadet' is better seen as a matching of those two vibrations, not what would happen were you to follow your desire to be who you are in any given moment. This is, to thine own self be true. Who you are, in any given moment, will be positively perfect for what's there at that moment.
And, as the 3d mind grasps the concept of linear time, that would be how you move, from moment to moment, to the 'higher levels' of desired outcome, so to speak. They are no higher levels, in truth, but popping from one existance to the next can be jarring on the contents of the 3d mind. Applying 12d physics to a 3d world is like trying to program a 2d video game to move in 3 dimensions. It doesn't really work.
How do you want to feel in each moment? How do you want your life to feel, overall? Generally speaking? What highs and lows do you want? Think of those. Leave out what situations you think would give you those feelings. Think of the feelings. Leave the orchestrating of it up to the universe. As you watch yourself move from moment to moment, watch situations change, keep in mind the way you want to feel. Use it to follow as a guide, as situations present themselves, which feel most like what you want? Follow those. Moment by moment. Follow those more than you react in kneejerk reactions to old beliefs. Be mindful of what you're feeling. Be mindful of the vibration you're following. That's your trail. All things that feel like that, will be on that trail. As you clarify and refine that vibration, the trail will diverge, splitting into more and more paths. It won't look like more options in the moment - usually never more than 3 or 4 at any present moment - but the look of the path as a whole looks sort of like a generational tree. This tree of life, with the ever-winding, sprawling, spreading branches, constantly forking off of themselves into new pathways.
Follow the path that matches your desired vibration. Choose new forks as they present themselves that further match the refining of your desired vibration. A kneejerk reaction to an old belief structure is sort of like looking in the rearview mirror. Like looking back over the path you've come and, at worst, backtracking to make the same choice you made back then. Reacting off that old belief, that old situation, that old hurt. It takes practice to live here in the moment. It does. But the more you practice being mindful of how you feel and how you want to feel, the more you practice being in the moment and the better you get at living from that present moment.
Here's the thing: Even if the others around you -do- feel hurt...it means they matched on a frequency that still need to 'heal'. They get to heal it in themselves if they don't want to feel like that again. You can't heal it for them. One perspective cannot fix another. It can only display the frequency. Every individual is a different perspective. All mirrors of the same whole, reflecting back the belief structures of everyone they encounter. -You- see your reflection in them. -They- see their reflection in you. If you don't like what you find in another person/perspective, you're not focused on your own desired frequency. No matter what it looks like. Desired frequency could look like something completely different from what someone else's, a different perspectives desired frequency looks like to -them-. Most poignantly seen in the gender and sexual orientation 'issues' lately. You want -that- combination of gender and sexual attraction features? You -don't- want that -other- combination? Focus on the one you want. Same frequency choosing 'lesson'. This one's for mass consciousness tipping over the scale side on the subject. People are getting to a point where they want to choose what they want more than they want to stop other people from choosing what -they- want, just because it's a different want. People are becoming more and more inclined to let everyone want what they want and flow through life being matched up with more of what is wanted, instead of trying to get everyone to want the same things.
This is the same 'lesson' over and over. Focus on what you want. Let the universe figure out the rest.
What you want is the feeling. What does it matter what situation it looks like, if it feels the way you want to feel?
Look at the way you want to feel. The way you think you want to feel. Does it feel expansive or contractive? Does it feel like it's coming from a place of hurt, or revenge, or regret, or guilt? Is it a retaliation? Does it feel like pain? Or does the root of how you want to feel, feel more expansive? More like openness? Which one feels better to you? There's no right or wrong. The only thing that is imperative for living the life you want to live is to keep your focus on how you want to feel. No matter what that desired feeling is. There's no good or bad way to feel. You get to feel however you want.
Never let anyone tell you that feeling sad, or angry, or dejected, or bored, or joyful, or giddy, or wanton, or lustful, or shy, or remorseful, or absolutely -any- way at all, is bad. They are -all- just ways of feeling. They are -all- just options in the buffet. You. Get. To. Choose. <3 No one can decide which one is best for you. You get to decide. And you can change the menu at any time.
You don't have to finish your plate. There is no waste when it comes to shifting energy. Shifting a frequency is welcome at whim.
You may be dissolving the beliefs at the root of various reactions and situations in your world, but that doesn't mean you're dissolving them from the world as a whole. It can -seem- like that, but that's because when you get that refined in your vibration on a frequency, and you stay focused on -it-, the rest of the orchestration takes place and the pieces of the world that don't match your frequency don't come into your perception of the world. it could be right next to you and you wouldn't recognize or see it at all because it doesn't match your frequency. It's not a bad thing to be 'blissfully unaware', if that lack of awareness doesn't match what you're actually wanting. other people thinking you should be aware is their own frequency. You don't have to make it yours. You get to choose. You're not a good or bad person based on those choices. Those are, again, constructs labeled by others. Choose your frequency, you'll match up with things that feel like that frequency. Other frequencies will still exist. They always will. Which version of your reality will you decide to be in? Let them decide which one they want to be in, lest your attention to what they're doing pull you from the frequency you want to follow. Do you want to follow their frequency, or your frequency? Again, no right, wrong, good or bad about it. It's all your choice!